Thinking

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately; and I mean a lot of thinking. It seems as though the last month or so, my brain is filled with introspective thoughts, complaints, questions, answers, and the like. Recently I have been really challenged in giving up what would normally be my "alone" time and/or my time alone with my husband in order that we might grow in deeper relationship with those around us. Overall, it has been a good experience but last night, it really got the best of me. I got so frustrated with the fact that I knew I wouldn't be able to spend any time (really just less time than I thought was ideal) with my husband for the next week because he has a crazy busy schedule. Then I was angry that we had spent all this time with all these different people and hadn't taken as much time for each other. I completely negated the enjoyable conversion, the laughter, and the further building of relationships that my husband and I had experienced. I also realized that I have been trying to give of my/our time on my own strength and out of my own volition. The result is anger towards my spouse, others, and mostly myself. What is the lesson? I must continue to trust in our Father who is all sufficient to supply all of my needs. He ALONE can fill those times where I am feeling neglected or lonely and also those times that I am feeling too overwhelmed or drained and just want to be alone.