Saturday, January 24, 2009

Learn to Love

I realized last night that life is too short. You are probably thinking, "Wow Jamie, you are a genius." But truly, I think that I came to a turning point in my life. I realized that life is just too short to spend it worrying about petty things. Now I, for one, will be the first person to tell you that those small, petty things usually seem like THE biggest issues in the world. Being too busy, too lazy, too pretty, not pretty enough, being successful or being a failure; the list could go on and on. But our lives are just too short. I need to be concerned with being a good wife, serving my husband and encouraging him to be a man of God. I need to be concerned with the poor; feeding orphans and widows. I need to be concerned with love. Lord, give me the grace to see people and hearts through your eyes and not my own. Help me to learn to love.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Not Another Tally Mark

It has been 5 days since I returned from Jamaica. For those of you who weren't aware, from Jan 2-9 I was in Jamaica with my mother and sister-in-law, aunt, and cousin, to work in an orphanage. Like I said, it has been 5 days since I returned and often I am wondering what to do with this experience. Where do I put it? I cannot bring myself to chalk this up as "a good learning experience" or as just one more trip to help those in need; there must be something more, some other reason.
I find myself thinking about the orphans; about what they are doing during the day, questioning if they experienced love from anyone today, and about how much I would love to rescue each one of them from their own personal hell on earth.
What do I do with what I have seen, heard, felt? What do I do with what I have not felt?
Continually, I will wrestle these thoughts, tossing and turning them, hoping that God will show me something; something about loving those orphans.