Absolution

For the past several days I have been really frustrated with myself. I have been feeling sinful; to put it bluntly. I have been acutely aware of the fact that I have had a terrible habit of speaking and then thinking. Last night, I confessed those things to my husband and a sacred thing happened; I received absolution. He looked me in the eyes and said, "Your sins are forgiven," and I felt at peace. Until recently I have never even really considered the necessity of absolution. But last night, I understood. Sometimes it just helps to hear you are forgiven from someone who genuinely means it. Not that redemption comes from that person or even that they have to be the one from whom forgiveness is sought; just that they let me know I am forgiven and I can live in that forgiveness. I cannot accurately express in words just what happened, but it was sacred and it was real.

All The Hype

I'm not going to lie; my heart lept a little bit inside when I received an email confirming that the book I reserved at the good ol' Gail Borden Library was in. The book, I must add, is Eclipse, by Stephenie Meyers. :) Don't hate me for my compulsiveness toward "all the hype." But really, I read the first book and loved it. The movie was overrated, the book was great.